Rest Isn't a To-Do List Item
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December changed something for me.
I took the whole month off. No calls, no content, no urgency pressing on my chest. Somewhere in the middle of it, I spent an entire day in bed reading. Just reading. I can't tell you the last time I'd done that. My teens, maybe.
Then December ended. I went right back into everything, more urgently than before because I'd let things sit. It took me until now to recognize what I'd actually touched that month and immediately let go of.
You're Not Resting. You're Still Working.
Most of us learn "rest" as a task. We schedule it, execute it, and evaluate it the same way we evaluate our work. Did I do it right? Did I get enough?
That walk you take to actively recover. The 30 minutes with a timer. The 10 pages before you let yourself stop. Those aren't rest, they're productivity in different clothes. Your nervous system knows the difference. It doesn't settle when there's still a goal attached, which is why you finish that hour feeling like you didn't quite get there.
Think about it this way. When I first started moving my body, I'd never heard the term active rest until I started doing workout programs. All of a sudden I didn't have rest days. I had active rest days. I wasn't allowed to just lay on the couch and be still. I had to go for a walk. But was I really resting? If I wasn't walking for the joy of it, if I was walking as a means to “actively rest”, then that wasn't rest. That was a task.
"Rest" isn't something you do. It's something you enter. It's like opening the door to the room of rest, not getting on the stair climber of rest. The difference between a task and a state of being is whether it can be accomplished. If you can fail at it, it's a task. But if you can't get it wrong, it's rest. You can only resist it.
So maybe you've been resisting it.
Rest is what happens when the striving and the trying and the doing kind of just stops. And it's not when you've done enough to deserve stopping. It's a state of being. Receptive. Spacious. Whereas a task feels cramped. Like when you're doing "rest" as a task, there are time constraints. You have to do it right.
I'm a Projector. I'm only supposed to be working three hours a day. Yet I'm always going, always moving, always something on my list, always someone to take care of. If it's not a physical task, there's a mental load being held constantly. And until recently, I thought I did rest. I thought I took my time. But I didn't.
You Also Don't Earn It
Most of us treat rest as something to be deserved. Push through the day, finish the list, then take your break. Rest is the reward at the end of the doing.
That belief is insidious and lives in that little bit of guilt that comes up when you sit still. In the way, "I'm tired" becomes "let me just take care of this one thing first."
You don't earn rest. The moment you're using it to get somewhere else, you're not resting.
What Your Human Design Says
Your type tells you how your energy naturally moves, which means rest looks different depending on how you're designed.
Generators wake up with a full charge. Rest comes when that energy is genuinely spent, after a day of satisfying work. If you're depleted before that, you're likely running energy through things that don't serve you.
Projectors don't recharge overnight the same way. We need rest before we're spent, not after. A slow start, an easy morning, time to ease in before the doing begins. Without it, we crash by noon and wonder why. I don't schedule anything before 10 a.m. for a reason. That's not laziness. That's design.
One thing I want to add here. I'm an Energy Projector, which means I have a little more energy than your average Projector. I'm also married to a Generator, so I pull some of his energy in sometimes. If you're a Projector working in an office alongside Generators, you'll pull their energy too and get a boost. But if you're working alone, remotely, or one-on-one with clients, you're not sure what energy is coming into your aura. You might want to recognize what you actually need. Do you need to take your time getting going? If you notice you don't get a good boost until later, maybe reframe how you start your day. This isn't necessarily the same as rest, but it gives you clues about when rest might be necessary.
Manifestors need to get away from other people's energy to actually rest. The solo nap, the quiet room. Being around others keeps you absorbing what isn't yours.
Reflectors need rest frequently and alone. You're taking in and amplifying the energy of everyone around you. Your recharge happens when you're within your own field. A trip with a Generator partner might be beautiful but probably isn't restful. If instead you took some moments alone, let your partner go off while you stay in your room for a little while, that time alone is when you'll really feel that sense of recharge.
Your strategy isn't just about work. It's also about how you replenish and how you rest. If you're resting against your design, you're still depleting yourself.
Your authority tells you when rest is genuine versus when you're doing what you think you should do. I used to think rest looked like just laying around. I'd lay down and be on my phone. So I was still activating my brain, but not in ways that were restorative.
I'm a valleys person. We don't talk a lot about variables here, but your ideal environment matters. As a valleys person, sound and music are very resonant and supportive to me. I've always intuitively known this. When I want to activate my design, I'll intentionally lay on the couch, pillows piled up like high walls around me. My family may even be in the space, but I'll put on noise-canceling headphones and listen to music that feels good in the moment. I'll just vibe out, eyes closed, just sitting there. That's me resting and replenishing.
I don’t have any expectations, or time limits. I may even fall asleep, or maybe I don’t. It doesn't matter, I'm just enjoying the moment and being in the space of "rest."
What I'm Actually Doing
I picked up The Artist's Way again this month. Three years ago I tried working with this book and ended up turning artist dates into fitness walks with a time limit and a mileage goal. That missed the whole point.
I'm approaching it differently now. I've realized just in the little I've read so far that I'm a completely different person than I was three years ago. I recognize that I'm more able to absorb and take in the teachings. One thing I noticed was that I didn't actually do the dates right last time because I didn't actually enjoy them. I didn't actually rest and play and be a part of me.
I'm wondering if you're like I was a few years ago. You thought you were resting because you scheduled the time. You were like, yep, for 30 minutes I'm going to do this. And in that time I'm going to read 10 pages. Or go for a 30 minute walk. But it had a goal to it, an end result. Having an end result or a goal tied to it turns it into an activity as opposed to a state. It becomes cramped, obligatory, and should-driven.
My rest right now is noise-canceling headphones, music that feels good, eyes closed (or maybe a lazy stroll because the sun’s out and it feels good on my skin), no particular time limit. For me, as someone whose design is supported by sound, this lands differently than silence. Your version will be different. The point is the state, not the method.
One Practice
Pick something you call "rest" and ask yourself this. Does it have a goal attached? A time limit? A way to fail?
If yes, it's a task.
Try doing nothing for an amount of time that doesn't feel like a challenge. And I'm not talking about meditation. Meditation with a goal is not the same. It's good for you, and I highly recommend it, but it's not resting. It's a task. You can get it wrong. And you can't get "rest" wrong.
When you notice yourself starting to evaluate or judge your rest, notice that as the striving returning. That's the whole practice.
Rest before you think you've earned it.
Let Me Circle Back to Something
We all try to rest. We know it's important. But sometimes we're doing it wrong because we've assigned it as a task, as something to get done.
I'm not even talking so much about scheduling it. Sometimes you just have to schedule your time. But in that time, don't make it goal-oriented. You're like, for 30 minutes I'm going to read 10 pages. The minute you set a time limit and added the extra goal of reading 10 pages, that stopped being rest. Because what happens if you don't achieve it? Now you're like, oh, I didn't read the 10 pages. Now I have to read more. It adds all these extra layers. Rest is not that.
It's not something you earn either. You don't have to earn rest. You're entitled to it. Just as you're worthy of wealth because you were born worthy, you're worthy of rest. And when I speak of worthy of wealth, I'm not talking just financial wealth. I'm talking about the wealth of living an abundant, beautiful life. The wealth of joy. The wealth of rest. The wealth of peace. The wealth of everything.
You're entitled to it. You were born worthy. You're entitled to rest. You don't have to earn it. It's something you allow into your life. It's a state of being. It's a room you enter, not a thing you do, and you can't get it wrong.
Well, that's not entirely true. You can get it wrong if you make it into a task. But when you're truly resting, there's no way to get it wrong. You're just resting. You're just being in the moment. You can't do that incorrectly. You just need to stop performing. You need to stop making it something it's not.
If you're ready to stop making it something it's not, to stop letting those shoulds control your life and dictate how things get done because it's always something outside of you driving instead of the highest version of you. If you're ready to stop living on default and to know your next move, then book a free discovery call with me. It's a conversation. We'll talk about who you are, who you want to be, where you're going, where you're coming from, and see if there's anything I can do to help you get there.
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Listen to the Full Episode
In Episode 3.6 of Worthy of Wealth, I go deeper into why scheduling rest isn't the same as actually resting, how each Human Design type recharges differently, and what December taught me about running empty for years.
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About the Author:
Matalya Onuoha is a Human Design Strategist and the creator of The Rewrite Method™. She helps people separate from the expectations and obligations that have been shaping their lives so they can build something that is genuinely theirs.
